Changing the “can’t”

One word that threatens my ability to move forward is “can’t.”

When everything is super regimented, it feels like I am living in what I can’t have and can’t do…

This is where I get stuck. And depressed… and angry.

My sister reminded me: I am the one with the power. Yes, I will hear “can’t” for the rest of my life… but I still have a choice.

I can choose to eat off Protocol. But I don’t WANT to. I am the one who chooses to eat healthy, provide myself longer sleep periods, and to either stay home or go out.

Last night my hubby and I went out… third night in a row where we were doing something… then I slept 7 hours straight!!!! And you know what? I made a choice to focus on relaxation and happiness… and the world did not come to an end!!!!

I can choose!!!!


When to seek help

I can blame the stress. I can blame my health, I can blame the world. I choose to accept that I own my problem.

I got tasked with a new challenge… and I have an awesome boss who preaches work life balance (and actually walks her talk.). She reminds me daily not to burn out… and yet I don’t listen and work 12+ hours a day.

I have an awesome husband, who reminds me to be present and part of the family. Who is ready and willing to be helpful… and yet I try to do it all.

I have family and friends who invite me to do things with them… get outside, get fresh air… and I “can’t” because I am working.

I have a wonderful coach, who checks on me when I go radio silent, and encourages me to make healthy choices…

My support system is firmly in place… my head knows what to do… my body is screaming at me to listen…

Like any addict… the struggle between what we SHOULD do… and what we ACTUALLY do consumes our lives. And it takes wake up calls to make a change. The challenge is staying motivated and pushing through what is best for us, versus what is comfortable for us…

Following Ideal Protein isn’t hard… it’s uncomfortable. Yes it’s a strict diet, yes it’s pre-packaged stuff.. but others have paved the way to make it delicious. Is there an effort… yes… does it take planning… yes. Is that hard? No… but it isn’t easy.

The bigger challenge is facing all the reasons you didn’t make your health a priority. Finding something inside you worth the fight.. and the making that a lifetime commitment. Damn, growing up sucks!

Today is a new start. And the only way to start is to take a step… listen and activate support systems… breathe… dig deep… and make a plan. SMART goal time.

I will lose a minimum of 10 pounds between today and July 22, and I will do so following strict protocol, including weekly visits to my coach, and I will not hide from the scale.

Today I make my health my priority.

Zucchini Chips-my new obsession

These are so tasty and incredibly simple to make
  • large zucchinis
  • Olive oil spray
  • Kosher salt/pepper/garlic powder etc
  1. Preheat oven to 225 degrees Fahrenheit. Line two large baking sheets with parchment paper.
  2. Slice your zucchini into super thin slices with a knife or mandolin.
  3. After you slice your zucchini, place the slices on a sheet of paper towels and take another paper towel to draw out excess moisture.
  4. Arrange zucchini on the baking sheet and spray with cooking spray.
  5. Season very lightly since they will shrink and have strong flavors.
  6. Bake for 2+ hours until they start to brown and aren’t soggy and are crisp.18951110_10102956619467748_1203178232160430783_n.jpg

One Week down of the “Revamp”

So checking in since it has been one week since I decided to do a revamp of protocol eating and wanted to drop some excess weight. Since last week I have dropped 6.6 pounds, 3 inches and I am feeling better physically, which is the most important thing to me.

What I have found that is helping me succeed:

  1. Meal prepping is the key. I am making/baking in bulk so that I don’t have to make new things every day.
  2. Drinking lots of water. Keeps me fuller longer.
  3. I am not beating myself up if I need to have an extra packet because it is better than grabbing a bag of potato chips or chowing down on something that will make me feel badly.

Catch you all next week! I am working on a veggie chip recipe that I should have for you soon!

Reflections of April

April is one of those milestone months for me. I married and divorced in the month of April, I bought my first car in the month of April, I moved 3000 miles in the month of April. I had gastric bypass in the month of April. The man of my dreams, and now husband, was born in April.

Yesterday, I was reflecting on how many major milestones happened in the month of April. It hit me, it’s spring, everything feels fresh and new. There is hope and determination in everything. The flowers are bursting out of the ground, the very earth we stand on shows is strength, determination, and beauty.

Yesterday, I took a walk with a friend along the beach. At the end of our walk we faced a staircase. It occurred to me about 3/4 of the way up, that I was not winded. Another milestone! I am healthy!!!! I may not be “skinny” but I am healthy…

FYI, the staircase may seem like a long climb, but getting to the top, and appreciating how far you have come feels amazing!!!!

A little competition

Do you respond to challenges well?  I am not talking about life’s challenges.  I am focusing more along the lines of healthy competition.

I find that I don’t respond well to winner takes all kind of challenges.  I am more apt to take a back seat and let someone else claim victory… but when the competition allows for everyone to win at some level, I push.

The past week my friends and I have been challenging each other to meet our daily step goals.  A few of my friends are over achievers!  I found that, while I don’t care who “wins”, I don’t want to be left way behind.  So I have really stepped it up!

Yesterday I was in meetings all day, so my ability to get steps was very limited.  I was exhausted when I got home after a 9 hour day and a two hour commute… took a look at my steps… put on my shoes and went for a good walk!

Talk about winning.  Puppy and I met our step goal, I slept 7 straight hours, I woke up refreshed and proud, and it gave me the reinforcement to stay on track today.  Yet another win, my friend told me I was encouraging her to stay in the game with her steps!

If you are struggling, invite a friend to a little healthy competition.  Support one another.

pictures are coming the trail we walk, puppy, and my Fitbit.  Please note, it was not a 49 minute 5 mile walk… this is cumulative for the day, and I still haven’t figured out how it comes up with the amount of time you exercise!